school is creeping

one more good sleep and then im back to my reality of forcing my zombie-like self under the showers at 5:00am. back to my regular manila traffic and the horn-beating mania i go through day by day in my good ol' kia. back to the 8am sterilization deadline. back to the blue tallysheet that still has to be fulfiled. back to courting the money-hungry agents outside the clinics. the quick reprieve had been such comfort that i cant let go of it.

im tired. already on my 6th year and im tired. exhausted of the routine. knackered of their expectations. i just want some time machine to bring me to where i am marching to the stage and all this is over. a certificate on my hand... a title before my name... the famous three letter acronym dangling after it.

i cant believe how quick it went... i still remember convincing the lady at foreign affairs to let me enroll without my grades and then pretending to not understand filipino so i could get a student assistant to tag along with me like a puppy. it's all fresh... like as if it happened yesterday and now im almost out of that damned school...

can't i be out sooner??? i really want all this to be over soon... let my dreams be amongst me now... im ready!