HOW TO PLAN MY FUTURE

HOW TO PLAN MY FUTURE

when i was in predent... i wished so much to be in dentistry cus i hated my uniform intensely. when was a dentistry proper i longed so much to be a clinician to be able to wear the pants... when i stepped in clinic i wanted for everything to be over...

that was how i was... and when i was preparing for the board exams i wanted to start all over again so that i could retrace my steps and go back to where things went out of control...

but that cant happen... this is not the movies, that what bon tells me everytimes when we're fighting about how dense he sometimes is... he tells me crix this is the real world, your fairy tale fatasies dont come true here...

and thats true...

so i guess i really cant turn back time and yes i am now A DENTIST!

whats difficult with all this really is that, 6 years ago i have wished to be here but now that im here i have no idea what i have to do next... i have never been so scared ever in my life. more than when i first tried to extract a tooth... more than when i first attempted to do a root canal... more than when i even took the board exams...

i am too frightened.
i never imagined this at all...
and there are tons of DVDs i still have to watch
and more CDs i need to burn...

should i just sit on the couch and wait for the sky to fall on me?
should i retreat into my room until world war 3 starts?
i dunno...
im so used at taking orders from people and now that there are no rules, orders and tasks to follow... im so lost.

maybe ill just sleep again
i have heard of people who encounter epiphanies in their slumbers, maybe ill have one of those and find true meaning in my life...

oh well...
i guess things will be better soon...
i hope.