men...
just pieces of me that cannot be contained anymore. anger. hatred. elation. triumph. defeat. combustion.
he's probaby tucked in bed right now... miles from me and here i sit infront of the computer again, drowning myself in sorrows.
i can't handle my booze anymore!!! no more... no more!!!
my sister says my attempt to customize my blog is so narcisistic!!! i dont fucking care!!! so what if my face is plastered all over the fucking screen??? who cares? if you can't read it cus you're getting hella sick of my face, then leave!!! bwahahahahahahaha!!!
it's not as it was before... probably wont ever be... it hasn't been for long... it wouldn't be ever... again...
i love working at kampyuter... minus the back aches and the increase of positivity in atoms... (anything i touch creates a kind of static, it's so amazing... i feel like i'm magnetized or some klind of human livewire?) anyway, minus that. i love working here at kampyuter... its constantly cold... i can listen to music... free internet...
ina, marie, didi and i finally left elements bar and after walking past them girls in ruffled skirts and boobs oozing out of their boob tube tops, we got into the car and fixed the itenerary only to find out that didi's car wont start!
oh yeah, my social life redeemed itself somehow this week... friday night i was out with my baby, his friend big boy and jef and my bessie mabeth who saw bon for the first time in 10months. we went to quattro in timog and i stuffed myself with yummy tuna and i didn't really want to drink much cos i feel that my alcohol tolerance has been diminshed to it's lowest level and i didnt wanna barf again at our garden... so there!
10 months ago i feared love... 10 months ago i almost closed my door again...
bon thinks i'm doing something rather mysterious that's why i'm always sleepy... why am i sleepy always ba? i dunno... maybe i have a sleeping disorder... or maybe i'm just really tired...
is that how you even call it? okay ill call it a golf cart nlang! so i was in the hammock at the back of our house trying to absord community dentistry when i got a call from boom (imagine my luck--ive been isolated from my friends for months now cus i was grounded for quite sometime and i lost my phone therefore losing all their numbers when just this week i get in touch with a number of them and now, my social-life has redeemed itself) and he said he was coming over to pick me up in a golf cart... i didn't really understand him at first but when i did i was like: "GOLF CART ARE YOU SERIOUS?" and as it turned out, he really was... so we drove from my street to capinpin (approximately megamall and galleria distance). its so funny, whilst passing through the golf course a number of walking golfers looked at us as if to say: "how come i dont have one and i'm a proper golfer?" and then we decided to get dianne... stupid boom though, he turned the damn thing off and it wouldn't start anymore. so he had to push it and that was the end of our golf cart ride...
i woke up with a text from bon who's left for pamapanga at freakin' 6am! imagine the nerve! can't even visit me before he leaves! why are men so insensitive ? so anyway, i didn't reply til i was totally aware of my surroundings at around 10am when i heard manong jun and ate lani taking turns pounding on the wall. whether or not they were doing it on purpose, only meant that it was too late for me to still be enjoying the comfort of my bed so i forced myself to rise and with my hair still messed up i went out and saw that they were hanging the fucking helicopter rotor on the wall... and hugo was nowhere to be found.
never really thought of starting up a blog... i have not really written for long. merely papers after papers to be passed to my professor every week. u should read my weekly hospital duty report... in my desperation, i have started what seemed to be a weekly journal that my hospital dentistry professor has to endure every week. lamentations and adjective infested recapitulations of what transpired throughout the day...